After a lot of thinking...

And also coincidentally cynicism from a close friend I have decided to release some of my older poetry which is an insane contrast to the normally dark stuff on here I will post it sporadically and probably with a lot of regret per each piece but here is the first one. Although I am not posting them in any particular order.

So I was sitting and I was thinking about my life

and I know that

What I was given 

is what I happened to get,

and girl your one thing that I know I will never forget

What was written 

is what was wrought,

But what brought us together 

I can say not

But when I close my eyes

I can dream

I can fantasize

And even though what I was given was a life that was tough

I realize

that your Love is quite enough

But now 

Baby 

Let me hold you

Let me gaze into your eyes

Because you know the only thing that can compare to your beauty

Is the radiant display

of the night sky 

Baby let me hold you in my arms 

You make me want to cry

I don't know what I would do without

I know that part of me would die

I love you inspite of our differences

My Love is not about in if or because

Girl your the only thing I need your gods angel from above

Please just let me hold your hand

Girl you are my everything

Baby your my lighthouse in the fog

But you will never understand

I hope this is the start to a lot of happy holidays and such for all you guys and girls it was an interesting start for me. I started the day with the usual web comics and then I noticed for the past few months I have been forgetting a comic by the name of Sinfest. Really well written web comic you guys should definitely check it out, between humor it actually delves into some deep issues something you only realize after a lot of reading and a lot of thinking... Also MLP kicked it hard today was amazing...
Cheers!
A.O

P.S: Ah well I noticed one of my past posts I uploaded I forgot to say the usual "Cheers A.O, I guess the next round is on me..."

Moar Random TimeS

'Nother quick upload this one was done in 30 minutes and I actually had a lot of fun with it

Transit Of Venus:

Well the TRANSIT OF VENUS is today. So check it out, if you don't know what it is it is basically the process of venus  Sorry for the dramatic effect and such but hey once in 105 years so it deserves some sort of effect. Basically it will be Venus floating in front of the sun. Once again I don't want to take any responsibility for anybody going blind but the best way to look at it is through a pin hole camera.

My Rendition of the Transit

Fish for friend!

Ghosting

 Anyway did I mention my science start
yeah I blame this. Anyway I gave up TV because of commercials, they just don't seem to rub me the right way for instance today during my Daria marathon I ran across a Buick commercial that compared the amount of thoughts a human has cmpared to a car... What are advertisers thinking? I must be missing the psychology of advertising sooo much because I feel insulted more often then not. While were at it why is Hagandazz advertising making me confuse the ice cream for a christian church. Overall adverts are really starting to fail me. Just complete and utter failing.

Happy 13th! (a retroactive post about me saying shit I regret...)

So on the 13th since its my favorite day I was going to upload somethings and have a wonderful wonderful post. Yeah my computer got water on it and it died a horrible cruel death. Rest in piece Xerxes but you have been reborn. I know I know I am naming my stuff again but I like giving names to things I am attached to. Hell a good name personalizes something. Named my car Alma (who by the way reached the 25k mile mark!). But hell I got a moment so how about a quick little poem about me dying...

I would bake you a cake if I knew how...

For when I die let me plee
Don't hold onto my stuff
Hold onto my memories
From hell I really don't want to hear
Remember how he used to drink beer out of this comical cup with a corny catch phrase
Check out this shirt he wore from he weird middle age phase
Am I your last stop gift shop spot
Pickup a souveneir to remember the life that was lost?
No remember me for what I had brought...

Yeah... Things come and go, learned that the hard way when I set out to day with a half tank of gas and had to fuel up cause I was driving around with my friends. It was a lovely little adventure where we went to thrift stores and game shops to see if we could pickup an SNES well we could not. We did find a fair amount of stuff though, and the rain oh my god the rain was fun. Managed to take a 20 M.P.H turn at 50 so yeah. My bad Brundle and Clementine. Speaking of the man Clementine we had this quick little exchange at a gas station...

Clementine:You know normally I wouldn't mind blowing up but I'm in your car.

Vasectomy

Me: Don't worry I feel the same way about your girlfriend...
(P.S Yeah Sorry didn't realize you actually had a girl at the time look whose the biggest ass in the world now)



Yeah I feel bad for saying that but recently I have been noticing a slight change in my mindset towards the dark side. Either that or I am just noticing more stuff on the dark side like that picture next to the word picture. If you look carefully it talks about how vasectomy is the most effective birth control. Which I agree with that is true but that's also about as useful as this T-Pain Microphone I found at Toys R Us! I mean seriously I understand getting a vasectomy, but advertising it as birth control? No shit Sherlock what else could it be? More importantly why is there a golfer on there? Is this targeting tiger woods? The world may never know, but this was just the first of many pictures I took this lovely weekend and since I don't want to try and tie them in through effective writing I will leave them at the bottom HAHA!
-Cheers A.O

Oh expect tarantulas! 

Success is your book ending up at Goodwill

Yeah I got nothing for witty

Its pretty smexy!

   

 

Just a window shot from the hip!

So now I am back... AND WHO PUBLISHED THIS it wasn't done being edited...

Hey guys just got back from my lovely cruise in the carib! So I guess I will start off with some plans for this small blog. First and foremost I plan on putting up just random writing pieces. Most of which won't make sense in any context but are just things I throw around in my head. For now I guess I will start with this piece...

I stared down at the paper scrunching my face up just another test. Just another test yet this one was getting to me and I was on the last problem too.
3x Static 4ry Static.​

"I should know this."

Tick Tock. This test was a killer in more ways then one. Two were dead one was coughing up blood. Pains were setting in as a bead of sweat rolled down my head and dropped like thunder onto the test blending the red ink causing my mind to snap. 3x^2 4 Static...

"It's getting there I just need to focus..."

One step at a time is all I need.

3x^2+4ry^3

It snapped in place it clicked everything made sense and I gasped as air rushed out once again I could breathe a sigh of relief because it made sense. Tick Tock. Piece of cake should be a walk in the park just focus on the paper and not on the clock. Captain Hook learned that the hard way focus on the clock and you get bitten by the Croc. Tick Tock.

"Time pencils down..."

The words stung like a bee and like a reflex I dropped. While weather my fist or my pencil hit the table first was unclear but the words I uttered were.

"Shit..."

With that the silence of the class was broken and the spotlight was on me. It was a spotlight not even the dead would want to be in. It was the angry eyes of god watching you.

"Is there a problem Saul?" Inquired the teacher. Under normal circumstances it would sound caring but nothing sounded caring in this school.

I spit out a quick; "No sir." While struggling with an excuse to say why I spoke up. Luckily one of my class mates nearby me ceased coughing along with living but that minute distraction was all that was needed to move the spotlight off me. Glancing down at my paper I checked to make sure the gibberish mimicked something I had taken notes on earlier. This school was the bane of my existence yet I walked it every day...

Cheers!
A.O

More pencil?

What is this (MAD)ness? I am starting to hate the argument of what beauty is. Heard it in philosophy. In reality it is just too vague...

Quotes:

"You wouldn't download a car."

"Not a stranger to danger more a stranger to your idiotic ideas..."

"STOP ALL THE DOWNLOADIN!!!"

"Sorry I suck at being sympathetic but I think you suck anyway..."

"I don't fight fair I fight ironically."

"I think you overestimate my give-a-damn-ometer..."

"iMa MaNTa RaY!!!1"

"I don't want cheese with my whine I want you to be quiet..."

"Ill punch a hole in time to abort you..."

"You do know who I think you aren't?"

"I think your overestimating my ability to use you're in a valid way but just to get to the point your an idiot."

"Jackhole"

Just got in an argument over the internet on beauty. I won. Huzzah...

Salvage:

Alright so short little post because I want to explain this picture. It was done ONLY with a circle tool. NOTHING ELSE. I am not saying I have talent (because it was posted in a thread on canv.as which challenged others to do the same and they had some amazing ones.) I am just damn proud of what I did. It took a long time and honestly it does seem like something I would genuinely make. I didn't try and go overboard for once I just had fun. You know fun right? The thing you used to have a lot of as a kid. So some little advice. Sit back relax and enjoy the little things. Make a name for yourself don't make money for your name because money won't remember you while your name can live forever.
Cheers
-A.O

Numb:

 

Just Numb...

Although I suppose it's my fault for leaving the window open...

Binary Definitions: Another shot at me sounding smart...

I have learned defining things for me is a very hard process. Ever since I worked with kids who pop the "what is an orange... oh its a fruit. well then what is a fruit... well its something with seeds on the inside you can eat?" sort of thought train I learned to think of life in terms of binary or the computer language of ones and zeros. Computers use binary because they need everything described to them like those smart alec children who ask what everything is in a snobby way. I find approaching things with true or false statements while lengthy and not efficient gets the job done. So when asked to define virtues I need to take it apart piece by piece. To start off with breaking things down I take things to there most base level of description. Past nouns and verbs down to the two basic categories of labels and descriptions because I define them in this circular way, all descriptions are labels and all labels are descriptions. A label is a name, a description describes. There is no technical difference between the two they are interchangeable but for my purposes a label is something we take and put objects in and descriptions are what we describe objects with in order to them put them in the appropriate label. Moving past that train of thought and hopping back the virtue express we now address what a virtue is considered in the human English language (because in between languages my philosophy might change seeing as language is the first way in which we describe the world to others). Virtue in the English language is a noun which means you would expect find a physical object associated with it as all nouns are persons, places, or things. Unfortunately when Meno tried to wise up to Socrates he made the same mistake to think that all virtues could be defined as a person a place or a thing. In all honesty virtue cannot be measured at all. A virtue is just a name for any trait or characteristic we find valuable in another human being; and what is value but the idea that something means something to someone? See even that last sentence right there was sketchy. This being said all virtues are different for different people. What virtue seems to be universal so far I have asked several people from high school students about what exactly is virtues and generally what I boiled it down to is a smile. Which really is just a show of warmth and kindness. Even though the intentions behind a smile can be different, the general message is not. While virtues take many shapes and forms but the general idea stays consistent. A virtue is something admirable found in someone. Unfortunately like a lot of the universe that isn't static.

Party Time!

Update Four:

"Was this unbiased yes they are freaking circles man they can't lie..."
That was said in my math class. As much as I dislike school I can't say I really hate any of my teachers. That quote right there was from my math teacher who is a certified bad ass by the way and taught me an equation that when graphed creates a heart! If you want to give it a shot the equation is.
Y1=x^(2/3)- √(1-x^2)
Y2=x^(2/3)+ √(1-x^2)
Then shade Y1 and Y2.
This is my Valentines Day gift to you. As for the video to the right I recorded it in case you do not happen to have a calculator handy. By the way besides my Xfire videos this is my first original video content on the Internet and that is not saying much seeing how someone has already done this equation I am sure. Although now that I think about it I do have a few videos from my Halo years. (quick note those links will open in a new window)
Here is a video of some serious launching!
and
Here is a video of some serious "skill"!

I say skill because most people are going to roast me like its the Fourth of July for saying I have skill in a first person shooter. If that map didn't look familiar to many Halo players its because it was for Halo CE you know the original and good one? Anyway got a few pictures for you guys but no poetry. Either way I hope you guys had a fairly good weekend mine has just begun...
Cheers
-A.O

P.S Hope to update more regularly. 

Cynical

I got grilled by a sub and a teacher for being cynical. Not my problem. Honestly I don't respect a lot of people due to cynicism, but the people I do respect I all but revere. Although there is no rule book saying I have to be really positive. I don't really believe I should reward behavior that you need to do.

Oh also sleeping in class someone pulled the fire alarm.
Cheers
A.O

My Yearbook:

I got a my yearbook account and I feel like when the numbers on there go up, I should be having fun...
In reality when the numbers go up. I just feel like I am looking at eye candy.
Wicked short post.
Cheers!
A.O

Freedom:

I believed for the longest time I was truly free. I used to think freedom was an ability and a condition. Was I wrong to think of it like that. Freedom is more like a side effect of circumstance. To prove this I will use math.
x
By itself x is a variable and can be whatever it wants to be until defined. At that point in time when it is undefined it is truly untouchable and truly free but life isn't that simple. But as more things are added onto that variable the freedom is taken away.
x-1
This would be the subtraction of a freedom such as clothing x being the freedom you have constrained by clothing. Like the cost of money


But life is more then just simple additions or subtractions there are things that can be added to help boost some freedoms while detracting from others. For example throughout the course of history we have developed technology that do free us from some constraints but in the process of accessing those freedoms we constrain ourselves. For example we have the freedom of flight thanks to airplanes but laws make us take classes in order to use them properly.
3x-1<x
3x is the multiplication from getting the ability to fly minus the freedom we lose overall from flying such as take offs and landings. But since we are limited by the plane type a more apropriate equation would be
3x-1<x<y
Same equation but "y" in this situation is the type of aircraft avalible since the freedom cannot be greater then the aircrafts capabilities.


Now x is not only itself but also itself and 1. The restraints that 1 came with will now be attached to x. So freedom could be written as an equation with each restriction is a variable. The more restrictions the more variables less freedom.
So yes I am free but constrained by that which also makes me free. Weird how that works out huh?

Its been a while...

Since they let me out to play!
Hey its February 3rd and currently I am sick. Also bored. So I decided why not get back onto blogger and throw some content out for my two followers since I know that if somehow they do everything they have to do and want to do they might trickle down over here.
Few images I am tossing up are some things I did during school hours. Yeah I know I should be doing school during school hours but inspiration like lightning never strikes the same spot twice, nor is it good for you're overall health.
I mean I have been inspired to do a lot recently but who knows if I am in over my head. I have to do robotics and in the process make things crazy steam punk. I have to make a bunch of arm bands, goggles, and leather aprons none of which is cheap all of which is going to take a while but hell it should be fun right. Unlike the cold I have.
Couple quick things.

• Learned how to make .gifs
• Bought F.3.A.R
• Currently wearing orange pants 

Quick funny video for you guys...
Well funny to me. Skip to 0:50 for the reading of sexy and I know it.






The other day my friend posted up this link. It is kind of about religion which is why I don't want to post it on here because I don't want to confuse people on my stance. By sending you to the youtubes you wont associate the video with me as much as you will with the youtubes.




Short post my bad
Cheers though
A.O

Update Three:

Take it to the fridge:

Really.

I don't even know.

I need to stop drafting posts at 1:00 in the morning. But I just read Cyanide and Happiness for a laugh and I came across this comic. It got me thinking about all the opposites of the holidays. Holiday spirit, without offending anybodies religious views. Although I find the tackiness of some houses Christmas decorations to just be offensive anyway. Or how we define peoples relations through presents while telling kids that really its about spirit. Although at least one funny thing did come out of Christmas shopping. When I told my mom I needed to get one more present and I was going to go drive she was concerned about my driving abilities on the ice and said

"You will go when hell freezes over."

"Mom if you haven't looked outside it already did freeze over."

She gave me that fake laugh and said

"Who is the present for?" So  I looked her dead in the eye and said.

"Well you."

I could have sworn she said dammit under her breath.

Skull'd

Now December is my least favorite month. Really. I mean I live in Colorado and I have met some of the nicest people in the world. But if Colorado's weather was a person, nobody would associate the word nice with him/her. While the weather is ideal for things like skiing and snow boarding which people in the mountains do a lot. It generally gets in the way of a lot and it is one of the banes of my existence. Now I know someone is already saying (and considering I do know a few Canadians read this blog every now and then I know who). "Yeah well its not as bad as over here." Maybe not but really I am not complaining about the amount of snow. I am just complaining about the snow and if I were in your shoes and it was snowing but worse then over here then the only thing that would change would be how bitter I am towards the snow.

Yeah I plug in my acoustic

You know what while I am complaining, I hate bats, and bees in video games. I started playing Terraria recently and as soon as I saw a bat in that game I had flash backs of every time I had to fight bats in a video game. Castlevania had bats, Legend of Zelda has bats, Resident evil 5 had a Batapillar which was a bat and a Caterpillar. All those different games, all those flashbacks came back and I prepared to fight a bat, and then a GIANT BEE came and killed me. So yeah bees. I hate them too. I like flowers because they are quiet and pretty and don't move when I take pictures unlike birds, but as soon as a bee is in one of them dancing around on top of the flower either it moves the flower enough to where the picture I take looks bad or at least worse then it already would have been. Or the part of the flower I was taking a picture of gets blocked by a fat abdomen or thorax. I feel like I sound pretentious right now though. "Hmm yes those bees are quite pesky when it comes to doing photography..." Then again with only 2 followers... Who cares what I look like especially online.
So take it to the fridge.
Now.