After a lot of thinking...

And also coincidentally cynicism from a close friend I have decided to release some of my older poetry which is an insane contrast to the normally dark stuff on here I will post it sporadically and probably with a lot of regret per each piece but here is the first one. Although I am not posting them in any particular order.

So I was sitting and I was thinking about my life

and I know that

What I was given 

is what I happened to get,

and girl your one thing that I know I will never forget

What was written 

is what was wrought,

But what brought us together 

I can say not

But when I close my eyes

I can dream

I can fantasize

And even though what I was given was a life that was tough

I realize

that your Love is quite enough

But now 

Baby 

Let me hold you

Let me gaze into your eyes

Because you know the only thing that can compare to your beauty

Is the radiant display

of the night sky 

Baby let me hold you in my arms 

You make me want to cry

I don't know what I would do without

I know that part of me would die

I love you inspite of our differences

My Love is not about in if or because

Girl your the only thing I need your gods angel from above

Please just let me hold your hand

Girl you are my everything

Baby your my lighthouse in the fog

But you will never understand

I hope this is the start to a lot of happy holidays and such for all you guys and girls it was an interesting start for me. I started the day with the usual web comics and then I noticed for the past few months I have been forgetting a comic by the name of Sinfest. Really well written web comic you guys should definitely check it out, between humor it actually delves into some deep issues something you only realize after a lot of reading and a lot of thinking... Also MLP kicked it hard today was amazing...
Cheers!
A.O

P.S: Ah well I noticed one of my past posts I uploaded I forgot to say the usual "Cheers A.O, I guess the next round is on me..."

Random TimeS

Just a little something simple I felt like doing. Its been an ongoing theme the grim pinata. Hopefully sometime I can go through the whole process of it.

Ragnorak And Ragnoroll

So recently I have been finding myself in situations where I have been pondering apocalyptic and overall just crazy situations. I caught myself watching Shaun of the Dead. I watched the Time Paradox episode of MLP again due to a conversation about Donnie Darkko. Yeah I am all over the place right now so I am going to cut to the chase and give you guys some links to fool with.

Zombehs in Florida!

T-T-T-Time Paradox!

Oh by the way, The Binding of Issac Wrath of the Lamb is out and I figure that since I enjoy playing it and I have the capture software I might just punch a few episodes of me playing through it on the blog sound good? Anyway...

-Cheers
   A.O

Oye!

Anyway so my last post got depressing fast and I don't like leaving my blog in a depressing tone so I am taking a page out of my Tumblr and posting a picture I found recentkly. (intentionally spelled wrong as a reference to something)...

Anyhow...

-Cheers
            A.O

Update 7: The Deadly Sins...

 Update 7:

That IS Batman...

 Wow how did this update get so massive... 
Let's do this. Alright so I got so much to talk about and so little time. I have graduated and now I am officially on my way to college. I have made so many mistakes in the past few weeks if not months. I have two brand new and slightly morbid and depressing pictures which focus on social problems. I even have batman. This post has been in the works for a long time and honestly when all is said and done my posts never live up to what I want them to be but I can always try, and isn't that what matters that we try.
Speaking of trying lets open up with some Great NEWS!!! That is right graduation, it is that time of year where seniors throw there caps up in there real high saying ayo gotta let go! We moving on from highschool to live our lives and I'm done trying to write the tune of Dynamite! I love the songs meaning. Not much doing on the artist though. I imagine that in the writing of this song Homeland Security picked up on a lot of planned bombings at night clubs. Oh well we all make mistakes right? I guess in my years of HighSchool though I made more then the normal amount so I guess what I should do to wrap it up like winter is just talk about what I did wrong. A LOT. Point of HighSchool education is to prepare you for the future, and for the past years I looked at it not as the opportunity to broaden my horizons but a game of abusing a system. I used to think being good in school was about having good numbers. Honestly that doesn't matter what you learn does matter. I was also too caught up on self image carefully answering to not come off as too smart or too stupid. Yeah so what it makes you a nerd to be there for grades and to learn but honestly I would rather be a nerd then someone who didn't know anything. That's how every student should walk into a classroom like an empty container just waiting to learn something, and even that is misleading because a container has limits and when it comes to knowledge limiting yourself is down right stupid, and lets not end up like the people here. Limiting your knowledge is blocking the door to your future, it doesn't really make much sense at all to have a door you can't use. That is just silly kind of like clowns. Speaking of which...

Knowledge Block!

...Crazy Clowns

That is right, crazy clowns. I know in school they teach you to transition fluidly between paragraphs but in all honesty this is more of doubling back then a transition. A lot of my school mates were a bunch of crazy class clowns. The kind that didn't realize what teachers have to go through. Now I don't fully know what teachers have to do but to go through a class full of Hot Shot teens who think they know everything takes a lot of guts, will power, and in some cases I think caffeine. So I have some shout outs to a few of my brave teachers since I don't have time to list them all and for the sake of anonymity I will only shout out what they taught. So far the certificates of being a bad ass teacher go to the math department, sociology, psychology, history, and social studies. The teachers I had who did those classes ran them beautifully and even though I might have hated the curriculum they taught I loved being in the class thanks for making school tolerable.

The Main Point:
(I like colons)

One teacher had a pretty big impact on me for making me aware of the problems in our world, so taking in his footsteps I plan on lighting some of these problems up in my own way. Let me start by saying how this applies to me though. For the past few weeks I have had a miserable time getting through life. The last two pieces of digital art I did which have been holding this update up and those pieces are.

My parents say I am beautiful but the medias image is what matters...

It wouldn't seem so weird if you knew what he went through...

Now at first glance (and all the glances afterwords) these photos are disturbing and don't seem fitting in what started off as an upbeat post. Really though I need to be honest, I can lie when I makeup stories about myself for a joke, but when it comes to well being and the real world I am down to earth and serious. Some people have problems. Recently mine have been shining through like a lighthouse in a thunderstorm. When my problems shined through I didn't really expect much to come my way. Yeah that's right I forgot I have great friends. A month or two back I was suicidal, and going through a rough time. But with a little help from my friends I got back on track and realized that even though I do have these problems, that putting them aside I can focus on problems that apply to the entire world instead of being selfish and taking my suicide attempt as a problem for myself I thought of my sociology class and how a sociological problem is a problem that applies to a society. I did these two pictures to address the problems I saw the ones that pushed me over the edge. The issue I saw was stereotypes.

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ster·e·o·type

   [ster-ee-uh-tahyp, steer-]  Show IPAnoun, verb, ster·e·o·typed, ster·e·o·typ·ing.

noun

1.

a process, now often replaced by more advanced methods,for making metal printing plates by taking a mold ofcomposed type or the like in papier-mâché or other materialand then taking from this mold a cast in type metal.

2.

a plate made by this process.

3.

a set form; convention.

4.

Sociology . a simplified and standardized conception orimage invested with special meaning and held in common bymembers of a group: The cowboy and Indian are Americanstereotypes.

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That definition is courtesy of dictionary.com now the first three definitions are ones that are irrelevant (or irrelephant) to the current discussion but the fourth one. The one that says quite plainly, standard conception or image invested with special meaning. That is what drove me over the edge. It's really stupid to think that we could as a civilization be stuck on defining people by traits. As a society we need to move past that. Seriously. I know there are people out there who will read this and say "that's not me I don't discriminate by any silly traits!" but if you have ever once squinted your eyes to make fun of an Asian, or put on a fake accent and pretended to be ordering Mexican. You have done it this doesn't mean you are a bad person. You might have done it in jest, you might have insulted someones sexuality as a joke; but its not a joke when someone ends up cutting themselves because they are too girly, and it's not a joke when people go home crying because they get picked on on a day to day basis. It isn't always a joke even if you intend it to be. So you can either not make the joke. Or tread carefully and risk hurting someone. Looking through the yearbook at the end of the year and seeing all the quotes which boil down to... "When life gives you lemons make lemonade." I have to laugh, because life won't stop giving you lemons each second of your life is an opportunity to change something to be something better to be greater to do something. Or to put it in that cliche way, to make lemonade.

-Cheers

A.O

Not a Lemon

 

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Mothers Day:

You know, I always feel bad because I almost always forget Mothers day. What's worse is I don't even know what to get my mom. She has spent 18 years putting up with my bullshit and even though she says it semi jokingly I know its true. I might be graduating out of high school but she is graduating from putting three kids through high school and that itself is worth more then any stupid hall mark holiday card. I mean I like snoopy as much as the next guy but seriously for what my mom has done there is no price. I guess my best bet is to make a promise...
While I am at it.. Here is a video update for my mom showing how I would make her dinner but how it would turn out...

Dolphins, Swagberg, and Cloning... The usual. (NSFW)

Vi-vi-video update. I got enough Mountain Dew in me to write a book, and instead with all the creative juices flowing. I feel like posting some videos that per usual are not mine but are pretty spiffy...
Did I really use spiffy twice in one day?
So we have a substitute for my philosophy class. We were talking about the ethics behind legalizing Medical Marijuana which I personally oppose but she said something that I hear people say a lot which goes along the lines of. "What drug will we randomly legalize next?" Now being the polite respectful student I am I said. "Hold on there is a difference between legalizing Marijuana for medicinal purposes (despite it being an incredibly wonderful placebo) and legalizing crystal meth for shits and giggles." Speaking of shits and giggles... Plungers and squeaking... 

Not my best transition into a video but hey lets keep rocking rolling and moving. Next up we have some more government related stuff. Due to my Math teacher who is a certified bad ass for the record I stumbled upon this set of experiments. Three of which I don't care for at all but the final one titled For the Love of Dolphin caught my interest if you are too lazy like most of the youth today to actually read the entire article I managed to find some Roosters Teeth to chew through the talking for you. Anyway the basic summary of this is the one thing we always need to keep in mind when practicing science. Is what you are doing even practical? I don't know how this one slipped through the cracks of an institutional review board, or what idiot thought this was a good idea, or where they got the dolphin... Yeah let me just get to the point the experiment was flawed and stupid knock it off scientists... You could be off curing cancer, understanding genetics, preventing the next big epidemic but instead you dropped acid with dolphins. Not the most shinning moment of Scientific history but you know what. At least we aren't making backwards progress. 

Anyway other then that I leave you with ponies, which by the way just wrapped up another season (I know a bit late on the ball with that announcement) but at least The Hub has purchased 13 more episodes of this adorable show. If you are looking for some other shows to get into check out Arrested Development, Shin Chan, and my personal favorite Daria!

Cheers! (Especially to my mate over at Freckled Productions who provided the first video...)
-A.O

I like having low self esteem it makes me feel special...

Let me start of by saying it is 4/20:
To me that means...
- Day of Silence
- Hitlers Birthday
No weed. If you were expecting some puffing here you better just pass. First and foremost shout out to those of you who participated in the Day of Silence to support members of the LGBTQ I didn't because I just don't know how to keep my damn mouth shut. As long as I am yelling I want to bring some attention to a "Sergey Kondrashov." A Russian artist who in protesting against a new law in russia. If you want to support him remember to do your research I don't want complaints about how you ended up supporting something you are against that would be your problem not mine. Moving on we had a debate about which gender had more miserable existence. For some reason the person organizing this debate left the undecided side up which is always a bad thing and when it begun we could see guys on one side girls on the other. Me in the middle texting about how trivial the debate was. The guys argument was basically "girls don't know the pain of being kicked in the balls." Yeah seems legitimate. Lets put aside periods and child birth getting kicked in the balls will end your world. In all honesty though misery doesn't care about gender. Misery loves company and if I am not mistaken is also bi curious. So don't complain to me how hard your life is due to being a specific gender. Everybody has a hard time. Just the other day a friend of mine attempted suicide. He is alright though with a little help from his friends, and not the Beatles song. So before you open your mouth about inferior or superior gender remember that regardless of which EVERYBODY suffers from images they feel they need to maintain due to media and pop culture.

Speaking of suffering lets talk about self esteem. Actually lets just lower mine by posting videos of really good artists...
First up.
Being a boss with a pen! We have someone combining sharpie, pen, and spray paint. Using card stock and coming up with a beautiful piece. Although the music is a little harsh on the ears so headphone users turn it down. Yes you the one wearing headphones. I am calling you out!
Next on the list.
Food for Thought! Yeah I should stop being CORNY. Ha-ha... Oh god way to disgrace the family name on the internet. Eclectic Asylum has always been know for some insanely cool pictures so check it with a poison.
Finally *(WARNING NSFW)*
Pencil or Photograph?  Like I said this link is NOT SAFE FOR WORK. So open at your own discretion and more legal jargon. Anyway this artistic ninja recreates photos using pencil!
I know I said to expect TARANTULAS last time but in the mean time you will have to settle with this little snippet I found while walking around which I plan on doing something to.

Anyway...
Cheers!



 

So now I am back... AND WHO PUBLISHED THIS it wasn't done being edited...

Hey guys just got back from my lovely cruise in the carib! So I guess I will start off with some plans for this small blog. First and foremost I plan on putting up just random writing pieces. Most of which won't make sense in any context but are just things I throw around in my head. For now I guess I will start with this piece...

I stared down at the paper scrunching my face up just another test. Just another test yet this one was getting to me and I was on the last problem too.
3x Static 4ry Static.​

"I should know this."

Tick Tock. This test was a killer in more ways then one. Two were dead one was coughing up blood. Pains were setting in as a bead of sweat rolled down my head and dropped like thunder onto the test blending the red ink causing my mind to snap. 3x^2 4 Static...

"It's getting there I just need to focus..."

One step at a time is all I need.

3x^2+4ry^3

It snapped in place it clicked everything made sense and I gasped as air rushed out once again I could breathe a sigh of relief because it made sense. Tick Tock. Piece of cake should be a walk in the park just focus on the paper and not on the clock. Captain Hook learned that the hard way focus on the clock and you get bitten by the Croc. Tick Tock.

"Time pencils down..."

The words stung like a bee and like a reflex I dropped. While weather my fist or my pencil hit the table first was unclear but the words I uttered were.

"Shit..."

With that the silence of the class was broken and the spotlight was on me. It was a spotlight not even the dead would want to be in. It was the angry eyes of god watching you.

"Is there a problem Saul?" Inquired the teacher. Under normal circumstances it would sound caring but nothing sounded caring in this school.

I spit out a quick; "No sir." While struggling with an excuse to say why I spoke up. Luckily one of my class mates nearby me ceased coughing along with living but that minute distraction was all that was needed to move the spotlight off me. Glancing down at my paper I checked to make sure the gibberish mimicked something I had taken notes on earlier. This school was the bane of my existence yet I walked it every day...

Cheers!
A.O

I hate feathers:

But this goes out to those who help make the pain of everyday life ranging from sneezing to crying a little less painful...

Quotes:

"You wouldn't download a car."

"Not a stranger to danger more a stranger to your idiotic ideas..."

"STOP ALL THE DOWNLOADIN!!!"

"Sorry I suck at being sympathetic but I think you suck anyway..."

"I don't fight fair I fight ironically."

"I think you overestimate my give-a-damn-ometer..."

"iMa MaNTa RaY!!!1"

"I don't want cheese with my whine I want you to be quiet..."

"Ill punch a hole in time to abort you..."

"You do know who I think you aren't?"

"I think your overestimating my ability to use you're in a valid way but just to get to the point your an idiot."

"Jackhole"

Just got in an argument over the internet on beauty. I won. Huzzah...

Did I mention:

Got my cards read today apparently my luck is so bad its good. Which surprised me because right now its just bad... Yeah thanks life...

I think I am going to start posting my pictures up in segments to show how they change over time.

Update Four:

"Was this unbiased yes they are freaking circles man they can't lie..."
That was said in my math class. As much as I dislike school I can't say I really hate any of my teachers. That quote right there was from my math teacher who is a certified bad ass by the way and taught me an equation that when graphed creates a heart! If you want to give it a shot the equation is.
Y1=x^(2/3)- √(1-x^2)
Y2=x^(2/3)+ √(1-x^2)
Then shade Y1 and Y2.
This is my Valentines Day gift to you. As for the video to the right I recorded it in case you do not happen to have a calculator handy. By the way besides my Xfire videos this is my first original video content on the Internet and that is not saying much seeing how someone has already done this equation I am sure. Although now that I think about it I do have a few videos from my Halo years. (quick note those links will open in a new window)
Here is a video of some serious launching!
and
Here is a video of some serious "skill"!

I say skill because most people are going to roast me like its the Fourth of July for saying I have skill in a first person shooter. If that map didn't look familiar to many Halo players its because it was for Halo CE you know the original and good one? Anyway got a few pictures for you guys but no poetry. Either way I hope you guys had a fairly good weekend mine has just begun...
Cheers
-A.O

P.S Hope to update more regularly.